there’s a hole in my head where there were lights letting out.
i was the best at my job but they taught me the worst. a broken man with a hole in my my chest where my true love had been. when i had let her in, i had given her everything, every part of me.
i had to experiment with things i had never seen and access a lot of different ways of doing things and i was afraid of all the things i was doing for you and not me.
our love was terrifying.
never have i been so immersed and you ripped my heart out with your two final words.
“go away,” was all you said, but when you said it you really meant it.
* * *
i was such a young one when we met, all stars in our eyes.
i think i’m too hurt to cry; too numb to care anymore.
i’m a ghost and i’m listless through the world at this point.
so make your way with your coffee and while you’re envisioning things, remember to see them as they really are.